Wednesday, March 5, 2014

Last message before flight

Flight Number : MI8912
To Brunei on 7th March 2014
Changi Airport Terminal 2(Above Burger King)
Departure: 0300HRS
Flight Number : MI8911
Back Singapore on 30th March 2014
Changi Airport Terminal 2
Arrival: 0250HRS

All officer before they became an officers will have to go through these training...
Couldn't know what it is going to be during these days, 
What I know is that anythings can happen 
People used to say,
21 days is when a person can change & starts to get used to the new habit 
After JCC, 
A person might realize who they really are
Might changed to another person
To these, I hope I will came back with as positive feedback
Really hope I will learn new things & be better
I am now very look forward to all my training until my joint term to commissioning
To Lead..
& Overcome....
We shall see the differences in me when I am back Singapore
Say No to fear
Say No to fear
& lastly say all you want to SUCCESS!

To My Girl:
I always know that I am not able to do everything that perfect as what you expected
Sometimes I compare, I compare myself with other people
I realize how different was mine compared to them
I know where I stand
But I told myself these...
Doesn't matter hows other people reaction are compared to mine
Who I am is what I really are..
I know I couldn't give the best but I know at least I could contribute something
I do try & I really tried 
I wouldn't know whats the result after all but as I said ...
Like the very first time, I will do my best
My very best to be the best boyfriend that I could 
To give you all I could 

We might made some mistake 
Mistake as in our relationship progression?
Mistake as in our attitude towards one another?
Mistake as in our trust?
And it might be a lot more things that it couldn't be seen in our naked eyes...
But, as well as we know
And we know how to recover from it
Everything will be fine
Couldn't stop appreciating 
What are the things you did for me
What you planned for me when I booked out
What you surprised me with...
You know I just wanted to say these to you
I Love You~
(The words that couldn't be define with billion/zillion/trillion words/sentences/pages)

I Love You !
I no longer feel scared of losing you anymore because I am now confident in the trust we had for one another

Sunday, March 2, 2014

11+15 March 2014

This two days are so important to me ....
It was my 1st year anniversary with my girlfriend & her 21st B'day..
But I have an oversea training at Brunei from 6th March to 30th March...
Every time I think of it I feel very disappointed & sad for not being able to be present on either one of the day.
Even though I am sad but I wish there is still people who is around her who can celebrate her 21st B'day good & make her happy still.

I never forget what she wrote to me before I enlist into Ns..
She wrote to me telling me that in life, it has two wings....
left wring of disappointment ; right wing of happiness 
left wing of sadness; right wing of joy
If there isn't any balance of either side of the wing....
Then something must be in wrong....
I believe having all these hard time during my training, it will not only toughen me, it is toughening my relationship with my girlfriend & toughen her as well.
With a super ultimate optimistic mindset of mine now, I do not believe in failure.
I only believe in perseverance.
Being so negative for like months in OCS, i finally found out the reason why..
It was simple, it is just basically about your own performance in your daily life..
If you not able to do something well then of course you will become moody & when this accumulated for months....
There you will involved into a pessimistic person.
Always look back at the successful things you have done
Get back the feeling, have the feeling of being a winner & don't keep thinking about failure that make you a loser.
If they are things you can't do well, people around you will have one that is even lousier than you.
You will never be the last guy if you continue to work hard!
Work hard & smart!
Don't overly pampered yourself when you put do in some effort..
Put in 200% more effort then only you award yourself
Moment you lost your confident, don't stay in that zone anymore!
Do something!! Find a way out of that stupid circle & gain your confident back!
If anyone who were like me once before~
Come on let's get back up & get things done!!
Continue to fight!
Never afraid of making mistake!